About 4 years ago some very perfect timing resulted in me going on a 4 month extended holiday around the world. Since then I have migrated back into the real world where people break up their annual leave into short sharp bursts so they don’t loose their minds at work throughout the year.
For reason’s that are only becoming obvious to me now, this ‘new’ way of organising my holidays has been casting a subconscious grey cloud on every trip I have taken since. For someone who has an extreme case of the worries, I put an abnormal amount of pressure on myself to have ‘the best trip everrrrrr!!!!’ Not only this, I invest a large amount of brain power into imagining the traditional things one would do on that type of holiday. For example a beach holiday= thoughts of me sitting on a beach.
That’s when it hit me. The things that I imagine make up the perfect holiday do not actually make up the perfect holiday for ME!
I’m giving myself permission to have MY holiday
From now on I’m going to approach my holidays a little bit differently. Instead of letting my over-active mind tell me what it thinks I should be doing, resulting in a horrible unfulfilled ‘I’ve wasted my precious holiday’ feeling, I’m going to ask the smart, more relaxed part of my brain what it wants to do.. and then I’m not going to feel guilty about doing it.
So what does all this mean?
Well for starters the next time I book myself on a beach holiday my expectations of sitting in the sun for a week will be out the window. 2 days ago I sat on a deck chair by the pool at a fancy resort so I could live the dream- I fell asleep 15 minutes in, woke up an hour later and have been applying aloe vera to my sunburn ever since.
What I’m trying to say is…
I’m going to stop living other people’s perfect holiday and have a perfect holiday of my own.
New Guilt Free Zone: 3 things I’m embracing.
- Not trying the local food. I’m fussy. I’ll try it if I want to. If I don’t want to, eating at every western restaurant in the city is still better than not eating at all.
- Feeling the need to be in the sun with a book on a beach holiday. Sitting under a shady tree with my laptop writing blog posts does not make my beach holiday worthless. I’ll read a book when I’m tucked up in bed after my room service.
- Watching a movie or Netflix on my holiday just like I would do at home does not make you a bad person.